A love told me last night, “I don’t like to not be be in control.”

To which I replied, “What makes you think you’re in control in the first place?”

There is probably no more singular event than growing a human inside you to illustrate just how much you are NOT in control of things.

We (especially as Americans, and for the local folk, most especially as New Yorkers) don’t have much trouble with desire, achievement, intention and a picture of what we *want* things to look like.

Or even if we are in that “in between” desert nothingness of not knowing what is next, that silent, invisible, inextricable pull of growth and life calling us to the next chapter without its purpose yet being clear: even in this place, we cannot find comfort. (Oh, the torture of yin these days, for most.)

Part of the being uncomfortable is natural, and necessary, for the growth, it’s what causes us to reach.

And part of it is, we are just impatient, petulant, entitled modernists, speaking far more of what we “deserve” rather than what we have to give, share or heal.

For power and abundance without Grace and intelligence, mostly translates to schemes such as: plans to build walls keeping out our neighboring countries…

And of course we want to intend and shape and wish and dream and call in. I have healers, sisters, from New York to California, Mexico, Hawaii, India, Australia, Peru, counseling, guiding, holding me, inspiring me, shaping my consciousness and expectation of what I want this pregnancy and birth process to look like.

But at the end of it all— that day? I will have no way of predicting what can happen. At the end of it all: there is only ever surrender. There is only ever, NOT being in control.

And the measure to how quickly we can surrender is in exact proportion to our measure of peace and happiness.

In this day’s consumerist culture what blocks us from peace, happiness or bliss is not a yearning or intention or clarity or desire- it is where we are holding onto to:

\\Expectation
\\Resentment
\\Yearning
\\Entitlement
\\Regret

And as is that Catch 22 of All Life, when we let it go, is usually when it floods us.

Surrender is ultimately the sweetest lesson and blessing to behold. Until we learn it, Life will keep pushing it upon us. Not as punishment. As Grace.

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NYC, join me in 2 weeks of a mid-summer night’s FULL MOON CEREMONY where we will:

*Utilize the natural power of the FULL MOON to tap into your organic life cycle
*Fully release whatever has been holding you back
*Redefine surrender as your most sensual + sensitive superpower.
*Dance out your hesitations, gripping + tendency to control
*Leave clear, connected + open to your life’s genuine juju

REGISTER HERE:
nycfullmoon.splashthat.com
Tuesday July 19th, 7-9:30pm, NYC